♥.my spot.♥

a time to let go

2009-06-21T00:19:00.000-07:00

after a long time of agony, the princess got tired of holding on..
of feeling the pain..
of seeing her prince with another girl..
of drowning into tears every night..
of dreaming that one day, she could be in his arms again..

she had long prepared herself for letting her prince go..
for letting go of the few memories she had shared with him..
for the endless pain that she might feel once she let him go..

but when she finally had the courage to turn her back on him..
she realized that her readiness for letting him go could never be enough..
especially when it is coupled by the fact that she can never be the happiness he is looking for..
and yeah, with the realization that their fairy tale never really existed..

when will i be over you?

2009-06-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

no one knows how hard it is to make yourself believe that everything's okay..
to fake a smile..
to crack jokes..
to pretend that you are the strongest of them all..
i just dunno what to do..
should i cry?
and make others see how weak i am..
or should i fake a smile?
and make them all believe that i am over you..
oh hell..
why do you have to do this to me in the first place?
i dont deserve this, sweetie..
oh, if only i can throw you outta this planet, i would have done that a long time ago!
so i would not see you anymore..
so i would be able to forget you..
so i would finally be over you..
but, hell!
i know i cant..
how can i do that if i dont even know how to put you outta my mind?
if i dont even know how to stop myself thinking of you..
if i dont even know how to close my eyes whenever you are near so that i wont have to see your handsome face anymore..
if i dont even know how to accept the fact that you were never mine..
oh man..
if only you know how much it hurts to realize that..
i am not me anymore..

over?

2009-06-20T00:12:00.000-07:00

it may just be months since the first time i saw you..
since the first time you made me feel that i am one of your special friends..
but it feels like it happened a long time ago..
it feels like i have long been loving you..
but now, it's over..
i have finally decided to let go..
to move on to a separate path..
i know it's gonna be very hard for me..
why it has only been months but it feel like forever!
but still, no matter how hard it is..
i know i have to let go of all the sweet memories we shared..
i know i have to throw them all away from me because if i will not, i know it will kill me..
you can never know how much it hurts to back..
to look back and be saddened with the fact that those things might not happen again..
it's over..
i know it has long been over..
it may be goodbye..
but i know one day, we'll meet again..
my first true love..

.sebseb.